What to do about my ex boyfriend... I feel so lost?

I've been in your exact shoes and i know how hard it is to move on from a situation like this. What did it for me what when we had a get together one night and he pretty much physically hurt me (I won't go into detail) I'm not saying that this guy would do this to you but it took going that far for me to be over with the relationship. What it really did was open my eyes. Before i had never seen how bad he was treating me and no matter what i tried i couldnt move on. After that i moved away a month later and i never looked back. I hope you can figure things out and realize that this relationship is just not healthy for you, your getting nothing from it. ANDDDDD you will find someone who will treat you better. Trust me!